I was born as a "gifted and talented" child with a very high IQ, and at age 5 I was diagnosed with ADHD, which was untreated and un-managed, due to the fear of medication, until 2017. My childhood was utter chaos and like roughly 75% of people with ADHD I was instantly addicted to alcohol, drugs, and everything I ever came across.
It was one of my stupidest ideas to date to, “accidentally”, not sort out my medication before I went to Brazil and have to, “figure something out”, for my last 2 weeks there. My life and my mental health were the best they had ever been, I felt completely in control of my actions, and I felt at relative peace. Why oh why then did my irritatingly morbid curiosity decide to mess with this? I remember saying to some friends that I met in Sao Paulo that when I went back to Barcelona I would be mental for a while. I knew deep down what this would do to me, yet decided to do it anyway - just as some sort of brain experiment?
This post discusses the communication problems within relationships and friendships, and the struggle to communicate and overcome repressed emotions, as well as self confidence issues and the struggle living with ADHD.
I think this post is very relatable to a lot of people. I am writing this post in a quirky Airbnb in Berlin after a few days of partying and much deliberation. I would say my state of mind is sad but rational. A friendship to me means everything. It means 100% loyalty and 100%... Continue Reading →
This post discusses the ridiculous fear of failure and the pressure to constantly achieve. It also speaks a bit about ADHD and the struggles related to living with ADHD.
Since my last post life has been absolute chaos, danger, destruction, and impulsivity due to my medication having not yet taken full effect again. I have had to ride this rollercoaster and just deal with each day becoming easier and easier. I have never felt so bad and so overwhelmed in my life. I went from a state of complete and utter turmoil and chaos to flipping everything into the most positive experience of my entire life.
A blog post about the struggles of living with ADHD, and addiction to drugs and alcohol, as well as an explanation of a new creative project
I know it has been a long time since my last blog post but after the last post I felt like a chapter had closed and I needed to wait a bit to find inspiration to write again. This post gives an insight of what it was like to be in the deep jungle and... Continue Reading →
This article will go more into depth about the process of starting treatment for ADHD which I mentioned in my article about seeking help for Alcohol Addiction. It explains the whole process of getting treated and what I experienced along the way, in a way which I hope is easy understand. I am happy to... Continue Reading →
This article will focus on problem drinking, and why we do this. I will try and use my experiences and the experiences of people that I have met – that have opened up to me – in order to write in a way that will hopefully be able to touch some people. The article will focus on problem drinking but also mention the problem use of Cocaine – as often these go hand in hand.
This is a brief overview of life before I started treatment for Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD). I am sure that parts will resonate with some people – as I meet/know so many people that I see all the characteristics of ADHD, which is either channelled into addiction, or holding them back from pursuing an... Continue Reading →