I was born as a "gifted and talented" child with a very high IQ, and at age 5 I was diagnosed with ADHD, which was untreated and un-managed, due to the fear of medication, until 2017. My childhood was utter chaos and like roughly 75% of people with ADHD I was instantly addicted to alcohol, drugs, and everything I ever came across.
ADHD makes living in the present incredibly difficult, but I am determined to learn this year. I am sick of the ADHD brain driving me insane.
My ADHD and Addiction to everything meant that I never learned to deal with emotions. I am trying to cure my addiction and learn to deal with life.
It was one of my stupidest ideas to date to, “accidentally”, not sort out my medication before I went to Brazil and have to, “figure something out”, for my last 2 weeks there. My life and my mental health were the best they had ever been, I felt completely in control of my actions, and I felt at relative peace. Why oh why then did my irritatingly morbid curiosity decide to mess with this? I remember saying to some friends that I met in Sao Paulo that when I went back to Barcelona I would be mental for a while. I knew deep down what this would do to me, yet decided to do it anyway - just as some sort of brain experiment?
This post discusses the communication problems within relationships and friendships, and the struggle to communicate and overcome repressed emotions
A friendship to me means everything. It means 100% loyalty and 100% honesty. We all need to learn how not to be a terrible friend
This post discusses the ridiculous fear of failure and the pressure to constantly achieve. It also speaks a about the struggles living with ADHD
Life has been absolute chaos, danger, destruction, and impulsivity due to my medication having not yet taken full effect again.
Spiralling towards insanity once again shows the struggles of living with ADHD, and problems with addiction to drugs and alcohol
Going ferrel in the Amazon rainforest taught me how to survive and live like a native. Survival in the Amazon is dangerous and hard work.