First of all, I would like to apologise for abandoning the blog for such a long time. I was undergoing a lot of changes mentally and was really struggling to get anything done. I knew I had to just ride out the tough times, try to learn as much from it all, and emerge stronger on the other side. During this time, I began to unknowingly chip away at the three masks I will talk about in this article.
I know a lot of people have been waiting to hear the rest of the story with my experience with Strattera (Atomoxetine) and so I apologise for keeping you waiting. I felt like it would be unfair of me to write anything before the journey had properly ended.
I am glad to say that the story has a happy ending, and I am beginning to return to what I believe is a new and improved version of my “normal” self.
Since my decision to quit drinking alcohol in September 2017 I have been on a tumultuous path towards what I hope to be a life free from addiction and the mental burden that comes with this.
Along my path I have been forced to face the ugly truths and explore the deep parts of my soul that I had kept hidden even from myself. By doing this I began to unknowingly demask myself, and I am now trying to live a life as faithful to my true self as possible.
It Is Believed That We Have Three Faces or “Masks”
The First Mask
The first mask is what we show to the world, the person that we want everyone to think we are – often: flawless, confident, and happy. This first mask is fuelled by: alcohol, drugs, caffeine, nicotine, sugar, and all other stimulants or false pleasures that give us false confidence.
The more substances you consume, the thicker your mask will be.
The Second Mask
The second mask is reserved for close friends and family and reveals us at a more intimate level. We feel comfortable enough to reveal some of our less pleasant characteristics and a deeper insight into our personality is observed.
The Third Mask
The third mask is what we believe about ourselves before spending time to introspect and really get to know our true self. The third mask often suffers the negative effects of the substances that we put inside ourselves. The anxiety, fear, and depression that all substances -even sugar- cause.
Interestingly, what we believe about ourselves is often far worse than the actual truth. We often focus in on every possible negative aspect and extrapolate them into the ugly picture we paint of ourselves – to ourselves. It is curious that we do this, but it is possibly because we have evolved to air on the side of caution, often underestimating our ability to save us from harm.
This third mask is by far the most dangerous and harmful.
We tell ourselves that we are not capable, not smart enough, not good looking enough, not strong enough to achieve what we truly desire even though deep within we know that of course we are capable.
The True Self
Beyond the third mask and deep within is our true self. It is often a part of ourselves that not even we know and understand. It is the part that we try our hardest to hide from the world, and even from ourselves.
The true self carries all the suffering that we have ever endured. All the regrets, past trauma, and negative emotions that have impacted our lives.
Connecting with your true self can be very painful because once you begin to remove the masks the pains of a lifetime can return to haunt you. Your entire view on the world can begin to change as realisations completely knock you sideways.
Freeing Yourself From The Past
You are held accountable for all your wrongdoings as repressed memories flood back. As you try open your mind again to the world you begin to allow yourself to experience all the trapped emotions inside.
This process can be very unpleasant, but you know that it is worthwhile as you can feel yourself evolving and releasing the emotional burden that has been weighing you down.
Freeing yourself from addiction is a long and painful process but once you embark upon your journey and you get a taste of freedom you won´t want to turn back.
This end goal is now even closer than ever as I am on my final week taking Depakine (Sodium Valproate / Valproic acid) – hopefully the final stage of my medication process.
Read more about coming off Strattera (Atomoxetine) in the next article .
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These are two extracts from my personal diary whilst I was travelling towards Manaus (Brazil) on a 4 day boat. I didnt have much to do other than think and write so I started thinking about the future of humanity.
I always put the song I am listening to or that is in my head when I am writing so it helps me to remember it in the future. I really recommend it to anyone that writes a diary!
26.05.19 Boat to Manaus day #2
How goes it?
Actually had a really nice first full day on the boat its been very relaxing. Spent about 4 hours drawing the map from work people which is going to take ****ing ages! Been chatting to Kirk, an English guy who is really good to chat with as hes very smart, loves debating and doesn’t just agree with everything I say.
We were debating about time travel which I had been thinking about recently and decided I thought it wasn’t possible to go back in time – firstly as people would have already travelled back here, and secondly if you travelled back you wouldn’t be able to return to the point you had come from as you would have travelled to a parallel universe or reality.
Anyway, he put forward the idea that if you could take a snapshot of exactly how all the atoms are arranged and then you could have a computer rearrange them to how they were at X point in time you could theoretically go back to that time.
I explained that you wouldn´t really be time travelling though and that was more like a simulation – he disagreed. If you were to change the atoms like that though what would happen to your consciousness?
That would somehow have to be stored on a computer & reprogrammed into you. Would that still make you the same person? We still have no idea what consciousness is and how it works. We don’t know what happens when you die and what causes us to have it.
I proposed to him the idea that we wouldn’t need to actually time travel as we could have it all simulated. Once the atoms and their placements are stored like snapshots permanently on computers you could send someone into a simulation of the world with these exact atoms.
If the conditions were set right then that person could live in that world. I.E go to point X in time and basically live as an Avatar in that world. All of the other atoms would exist and then continue to move in whatever way they were interacted with and any alternative path could be followed. The thing that would be lacking would be the consciousness of others.
However, with big data going the way it is the Google / FB will have enough data to make realistic avatars of everyone that is on Social Media. Even people that aren´t on Social media will still have their traits and habits recorded by Google based on their spending, as well as texts to and from other people who are connected, medical history etc.
We are not that far away from having all of our data owned and so it is not unfathomable to think that every aspect of our life will be stored as data somewhere.
People could literally live in virtual alternative realities as Avatars. This is just the first stage.
If parallel universes actually exist – and I think that they do – then using the atoms snapshot theory you could transport yourself to another moment, have yourself programmed in, and then have your consciousness transported across.
If you were able to just copy your atoms and consciousness into another screenshot then your original self wouldn´t have to die and could continue in the original reality whilst your new self and new reality would continue along together.
You would be two people with two realities. For this to work you would need to somehow fire out these atoms into some part of space, so that a new universe was created.
Argh this is so ****ing complicated
27.05.19 Boat to Manaus day #3
La Guitarra (Los Autenticos Decadentes)
Chatted again to Kirk this morning about our future and what will become of the future humans. I explained to him the problem in transferring consciousness & my simulation theory.
We then started talking about how in the, (not so distant), future we will have absolutely no need for bodies as they are just vessels for our brains. At some point our brains and consciousness will have no use for bodies and as we become more and more part of the, “cloud”, then our consciousness and thoughts will just become online.
We would all be linked to the same system and so there would be absolutely no individualism left, and we would be a collective entity. Arguably nowadays there is no real individuality.
We are completely dependent on technology and infrastructure and the individual is completely irrelevant. A not so distant world could involve robots/cyborgs doing everything manual then our collective brain processing everything and controlling it all.
Kirk made a good point that our brains actually work very slow and so if we can discover how to replicate or copy consciousness and then transfer it to a man made brain then you could have technology such as fibre optic which is sending signals at the speed of light and so our “computing” power would just become insanely powerful and quick.
It would be just an increasingly quick learning brain and our normal problems with science could theoretically be solved in seconds if we use the logic that our calculations will be proportionately quicker to the speed increase of the neurons. Crazy ****ing stuff.
Also crazy that the nerds that thought the Star Trek and things like that have already thought of this stuff probably. Before tech revolution even begun.
We were thinking about when you sit there and try to remember something and you are struggling and eventually it comes to you. What is actually happening here? Is your brain firing neurons trying to recall the memory? Is there something blocking it? Imagine if there were no time delay though.
There would be no, “working out”, time. You would just instantly arrive at the conclusion. We would be able to read things instantly and probably arrive at every conclusion instantly. So long as the brains had the power to process all this info – which they presumably would, then you would become your own supercomputer. I want to write this into blog I think – get some people think about what might happen.
This past month has been completely and utterly overwhelming. Both physically mentally and spiritually. Through therapy and lucid dreaming I feel like the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulder and at the age of 26, I have finally turned from a child to a man.
I had been repressing emotions, trauma and total confusion for all my life. I had always been searching for the missing piece which I had always known but always denied.
Through therapy and an almost bewilderingly perfect chain of events that I can only describe as destiny, I have been referred to a specialist center to start a 7 stage diagnosis for Autism Spectrum Disorder / Asperger’s Syndrome. Whatever outcome I get from these sessions I will be happy to get some answers that I have always been searching for.
All my life people have told me to stop searching, to stop probing, to just accept who I am -to accept that I am different. I love being different but living life without an identity is horrible.
Feeling like a stranger in your own country, amongst your own friends and then in every country you visit, is a horrible and lonely feeling. Not knowing yourself means that no one can really know you.
This depression has finally been lifted and bit by bit I have started to regain some of my childhood memories, which had been hidden in my subconscious for all this time.
When I was little, I used to lucid dream* all the time and I used to enter into my dreams all the time and control them and search for answers. I could go on little quests and adventures and find answers for things I didn’t understand.
*A lucid dream is a dream in which you realise you are dreaming and are able to control and manipulate your dreams. They can be amazing but can also be horrific lucid nightmares
This all stopped when I started drinking around the age of 11/12. For the next 15 years, these dreams only happened to me in the form of nightmares or sleep paralysis due to drug or alcohol withdrawal.
Now for the first time in 15 years, I have started to lucid dream again. I have been using these dreams to discover new things about myself, to ask questions, to find answers, and to search within my soul.
4 pills – My First Lucid Dream
It was a game where people were given a bag of 4 pills:
One makes you super smart
One makes you super horny
One makes you super-efficient
And one makes you want to kill yourself
The game was only supposed to last 24 hours, but the pills
never wore off.
Everyone was hunted by an army of people and their powers are almost magical they had visions.
Everyone ended up going crazy and then more and more pills start appearing and even though people see the devastating effects they can’t stop taking them
All the people in the dream ended up killing themselves through their actions
The world was chaos
As I started to analyse the dream as it was happening I realised that it was a manifestation of the world we live in. Everyone was fiendishly grabbing and taking things which they knew were killing them. Noone seemed to care about the consequences of their actions.
During the dream, I started lucidly recording my voice on my phone as I entered in and out of the madness and went on to give a speech about capitalism and its flaws.
I realized that greed is the root of all evil and capitalism is the root of all greed.
I will upload the full recording and transcript of it elsewhere.
Lucid Dream #2 – The Ceremony
The next lucid dream involved my family and all my friends and family members that I know. Everybody was taking some sort of substance that was opening their mind and each person was going through a journey of self-discovery. I was witnessing through each person’s eyes their journey of self-discovery in a sort of Ayahuasca-esque ceremony.
One by one I started to unravel and understand the problems of each person that I know and love. I felt anger, guilt, hurt, shame, happiness, sadness, regret – but most importantly forgiveness.
This was my brains’ way of processing my journey of self-forgiveness and forgiving those to whom I have done damage. I am not sure how long this process lasted, I’m not sure what parts I was awake for what part I was asleep but I ended up with a nearly 20,000 words document detailing all of my problems in detail as well as those of every member of my family and the people I love.
I had released all my thoughts my worries my fears my reasoning and my logic onto paper and I had said all the things I needed to say.
There was no need for me to tell all these people the things that I had written, there was no need to cause pain to the people I love. Writing this was my way of releasing myself from my past.
Another day passed and then I had another lucid dream in which I saw my grandfather who died roughly 10 years ago.
Saying Goodbye and Moving On
I never got a chance to say goodbye to him as he died suddenly,
and I don’t even remember his funeral. I was 16 and I have no memory of his
funeral. I wasn’t even aware that this was eating me up inside but through this
dream, I was able to give him a hug and say goodbye to him before watching him shrivel
up and die.
I knew I was dreaming but my brain was giving me the opportunity to say goodbye once and for all. For someone who hasn’t dreamed properly for over half their life, this experience was incredibly profound.
#3 Writing Poetry in a Lucid Dream
In the next lucid dream, I saw a childhood friend who I haven’t
seen for over 15 years. Whilst dreaming I wrote a poem and this friend spoke
the poem out loud to me. I had my phone by my head and so I lucidly recorded my
voice as I spoke the poem and in the dream, she recited it to me.
I then went on to record an 18-minute mantra which will be the mantra for the Quest for Wisdom. The philosophy behind which I will carry out all my actions. When I woke up, I was incredibly confused. I wasn’t sure what was real and what was not, I wasn’t sure if I was insane. I vaguely remembered recording some audios.
Lucid Dreaming or Going Crazy
I was scared as I went to listen to them. I didn’t know exactly what they were going to say. If it was a rambling bunch of non-sensical words I would have to believe that I was crazy and that there was something wrong with me. Luckily everything I had recorded was logical and made perfect sense to me. The poem I had created was in perfect rhyme and very profound.
I wasn’t sure whether to share this process or not with people. But it seems that at some stage in their life a lot of people must pass through this process of forgiveness and maturing from child to adult.
I have always known that age is irrelevant, but I realised that in order to mature from a teenager to an adult you must face all your problems head-on, accept them, work on them, apologise if necessary and then finally forgive yourself for your past.
Everybody has regrets from the past, or feels shame for some of their actions. Some people wish they had tried harder in school, some people aren´t happy with their life and blame their pasts or their family.
I seem to be around a lot of people that are going through this process and it’s a confusing and horrible time. It makes you feel hopeless, lost and misunderstood.
Forgive Yourself for Your Past
You need to accept yourself for who and what you are, ask
forgiveness for any damage you have done to yourself or others, and start to
work through any personality traits you have which are damaging.
If you do not go through this process, then you will never
grow up. You will remain childish and self-centered until the moment you decide
to solve your personal issues.
I always had a fear of being part of the 27 club, but now I
know that I am guilt-free and have a clear conscience there is no reason for
this to ever happen.
I can now move on with my life, happy and content, and free
from guilt and shame. The things that have always held me back.
Recently I have been constantly self-analysing and beating myself up with the thought and realisation that I am in fact selfish.
Merriam-Webster defines Selfish as “To be concerned excessively or exclusively with oneself: seeking or concentrating on one’s own advantage, pleasure, or well-being without regard for others”.
This sounds great as we all think, “well I think about the well-being of others all the time, I can’t be selfish?” But what if you only care about how others are affected, or how your actions towards others are perceived because it directly impacts you each time?
To be selfish or narcissistic is one of the worst outward “traits” that a human can have, but as I started to think through this concept, and discuss my concerns with my Psychologist, I began to realise that we are in fact all selfish and in this game of life for ourselves.
I started to wonder why this was, what causes us to WANT to survive, to be the best, and to selfishly desire to have children for our own benefit.
Survival of The Fittest
I began thinking deeply about Evolution, Genetics, and the,
“Survival of the Fittest”, theory, when I was away in Brazil and it fascinates
me to think of us as animals first, conscious beings second. I now view my own
actions, the actions of others, group mentality, and the classic traits and
emotions of humans as mere products of our animalistic instincts driven by a
desire to win.
Pondering the ways in which humans are selfish led me to consider the fundamental differences between the sexes. I focused on the biological differences between males and females, and became convinced that biologically both sexes are selfish – but for different reasons. I realised that selfishness and competitiveness were two very similar traits, and almost always go hand in hand.
Nowadays there is a lot of talk about how Sex and Gender mean nothing and are not representative of a person’s characteristics, but I feel that this simply is not true.
Of course I absolutely love the fact that nowadays people start to question their gender and question everything that society has taught them about Gender Roles and their sexuality – and view it not as a monochromatic hetero / homo sexual classification – but as part of a spectrum.
I believe that nothing in life is a simple yes/no and our entire personalities lay dotted on various spectrum. I want, actually, I urge people to question absolutely everything that they experience.
Biological Differences Between Males and Females
However, we cannot ignore the biological and evolutionary
differences between males and females, neither should we be trying to minimise
the differences. We should embrace the differences between the two sexes, and
learn how to better understand the differences in the functions of the brains
Equality does not mean that we are equal psychologically and physiologically, it means that we are equally capable of pursuing the same goal when given the right opportunity.
Males and females have evolved with the same fundamental selfishness and competitiveness. What differs are the end motives and methods of achieving this. In the vast majority of communities and societies all over the world, males have evolved to be, “dominant”.*
We know that males are not more intelligent than women, we know that they are not more resilient, we know that they are not less prone to catching illnesses, we know they are not fitter, i.e we know that there is no physical reason that males should be dominant.
*There are examples of some tribes that still exist today with a Matriarchicical society, and throughout history, there have been various examples, however, these are few and far between.
In fact, even back in the days of hunter-gatherers, and when humans were more reliant on hunting and fending for survival, physical size would not have been an obvious advantage. The aforementioned traits of fitness, resistance to illness, ability to survive without food for longer periods of time (metabolism), as well as intelligence and the ability to recognise and avoid danger, are far more genetically beneficial traits.
This got me to thinking that yes males are physically bigger than women, but as far as I can see this has nothing to do with their comparative success – or the dominance of powerful positions in society.
“Learned” people, (since as far back as records
go), tend not to do manual work – and so we can assume that physical size has
nothing to do with success. Mathematicians, scientists, scholars, politicians,
(the traditionally powerful positions), were almost always occupied by men and
this has continued to the present day. None of these jobs have anything to do
with physical size.
As we have ruled out physical size as the differentiating factor, (and the factor that is often quoted as the reason for inequality or to undermine women), we are left with the only other obvious difference which is that women bear children, and biologically and evolutionarily WANT to have children.
Females have evolved as intrinsically competitive and selfish because of their biological desire to be impregnated and have children. I believe this is an animal instinct that, (the majority), are born with. As females have, (historically), had less of a platform to defend themselves openly, have had less confrontational careers, and have spent less time dealing with external conflicts, (those outside of family conflicts and conflicts that arise from raising children), they have evolved to be more calculating and less confrontational.
This is why females are often accused of being more,
“bitchy”, “backstabbing”, “cold”, and
“emotionally manipulative” than men. Females have evolved to try and
eliminate the competition around them in a more subtle way than males.
Females have evolved as fiercely competitive as their options have always been limited. There are fewer opportunities for “success” for females, whether this be the success of bearing a child, or now in more modern times, the success of a fulfilling life and career. They have a limited amount of time to bear children – and thus protect themselves and their genealogy, as well as limited career opportunities in most countries.
Males, on the other hand, are also intrinsically selfish and
competitive but have evolved with different methods for achieving success.
Males have historically done most of the fighting in wars
and occupied most of the conflict – resolving positions, such as politicians
and military personnel, etc.
Because of this, males – on the whole – prefer to resolve
conflicts face to face and use, “brute force”, either physical or
The male hormone testosterone causes males to seek partners
and affects emotions such as anger and rage. Males are on the search for power
so that they can have their choice of females and they must eliminate
competition in order to achieve this.
Females are biologically and subliminally on the hunt for males with power and/or stability in order to protect themselves and be able to procreate and provide their children with the best chance for survival. As our societal concepts of power and gender roles begin to change, more people are now opting for, “non-traditional”, relationship, such as younger males within the relationship, more “powerful” women, and even polyamorous relationships, (which I will discuss in a separate article).
What I am trying to get at here is that intrinsically,
before we even begin to analyse specific situations, we begin to realise that
we have evolved to be selfish, in order to eliminate competition in the most
efficient way possible.
The train of logic is this: the more selfish you are, the more you are willing to eliminate competition and this results in higher levels of success. Narcissistic tendencies can be seen when looking at almost any powerful figure, past or present. There are of course exceptions to this, as with any rule, but take a moment to think of the most successful people you know and their attitudes in life.
How have they achieved power if not inherited? I argue that even the world’s greatest philanthropists do so for self-gratification, and to give themselves a fulfilling and meaningful life. This point reminded me of the Friends episode discussing this topic:
In our modern societies these concepts of females just being child-bearers and males being the, “bread-winners”, (i.e those that provide for their families), is slowly but surely ebbing away. I think it is fantastic that people nowadays are more conscious of what they truly want, and are beginning to push the boundaries and limits imposed by society. However, whilst the mindset of the people is changing, the genetic information stored within, and the intrinsic human desires and needs have not changed.
Helping People Is Selfish
I began to feel exasperated because although I want to do good and I want to help people, I couldn’t release the guilt I felt about just doing things to satisfy my own desires. I now inadvertently have become somewhat of a life-coach to people, and I receive messages almost every day from people asking for advice. I love to help people, I love to offer advice and share my experiences with anyone that will listen, BUT, this within itself is selfish.
I want to help people because it makes me feel good inside.
If it didn’t make me feel happy and wanted, would I want to help people so
much? This caused me many weeks of torment as I battled mentally with this
realisation. I felt like my whole life was a lie, and that I couldn’t be a good
person because I was just gratifying myself in the form of helping others.
As I began to rationalise this I realised that ALTRUISM DOES NOT EXIST. I could not come up with a single example of true altruism. I realised that everybody that does nice things does so for some benefit to themselves: self-gratification, the advancement of a career, to demonstrate how “good” they are, to attract a partner, etc.
True Altruism Does Not Exist
True altruism does not, and cannot exist. The closest example I could come up with was a fathers love and desire to care for his child. The connection between a mother and a child is the strongest connection in the world but this is something that is physical as well as mental, and something incomparable. A mother’s love for her child cannot be called altruistic, because that child was and is part of her physically – thus it is just protection of what is hers.
A Fathers love for a child is something less natural, as males can impregnate multiple females within a short period of time, and can continue to do so their whole lives.
The father can never carry the child inside of him, never has any physical/hormonal changes to his body, never breastfeeds, etc. and so the love and desire to care for the child grows more organically .
However, my bubble was burst when I realised that intrinsically – and subliminally – a Father views a child as something which will care for him when he is older, or continue his genealogy.
I am not a father – or an expert on this matter – but thinking of it objectively and thinking of us as animals at a base level this makes perfect sense. The love of a child can be attributed to the survival, protection, and reproduction of the genes of the parents – thus it is selfish.
We Are All Selfish
I reached the conclusion that I am, and we are all selfish!
I found solace when I reached this conclusion because I no longer felt guilty
for wanting to help people. We may all be selfish and in this game of life for
ourselves, but we can try to make life better for others whilst we follow our
own path. Our selfishness can be used positively, and also minimised when
I am sorry for this long article, and the tangents which it follows but it was something that was driving me crazy and I wanted to write about it and share my conclusions.
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The Age of Aquarius represents the merging of spirituality and science. A time where religion and science can come together to create medical innovations and technology to help humanity.
I don´t know almost anything about Astrology but I thought it was an interesting quote regardless of whether you believe or not. (Bracha Goldsmith)
I wanted to divulge a new, somewhat more positive message and perspective, on the Coronavirus pandemic.
I have had this weird feeling inside of me that something
was coming in April, that I HAD to wait until April before trying to launch my
BUT WHY APRIL?
Everyone in my network of friends and peers everyone has been speaking of Destiny this year, that 2020 is THE year. The energy and the mindset of people around me seems to have changed from the miserable and hopeless outlook that I felt last year in 2019 – as the decade came to an end – to the more positive and spiritual mindset that people seem to have encompassed.
Since I arrived back from Brazil in August 2019, I had the
idea that I would give myself 8 months – until APRIL – to explore myself, enjoy
Barcelona, and most importantly decide what to do with my life.
AND WHY APRIL?
Tensions have been rising around the world with intercontinental cold-war threats, the refugee crisis that seems to be somewhat ignored, and general unhappiness. But at the same time, I see that all around me people are bubbling with creativity and energy and just waiting for something to explode.
After reading the bible as a kid, I decided that I didn’t believe in a god – at least not the god described in the bible or the other similar texts. I decided that a perfect god would not have made such an imperfect, illogical book filled with contradictions.
I did then start to believe in humanity and the power of our
subconsciousness and our instincts. The human subconsciousness and human animal
instincts are by far the most underrated weapon in the global arsenal.
Throughout my life I have broken mostly every rule that I
have been faced with. I have broken the law repeatedly; I have always tried to
push the boundaries and test my mental and physical limits. This is because I have
always followed my instincts and done what I think is the (morally) right thing
to do. Every risk I have taken I have always analysed, accepted and sometimes
suffered the consequences.
In my case these consequences have mainly been mental, and
my mental health has taken a severe beating my whole life for my decisions but
I stand by them – because I have good intentions.
The point I am trying to make here is that when we fight
against our instincts we make errors. When we stick with something that we know
deep down is wrong we suffer. Be this a relationship, a career, a hobby or
anything else in life.
We are born with killer instincts and we must not ignore
We are born to survive.
The society or culture in which we grow up in can either
help or numb and discourage these survival instincts.
Recently I was asked by a good friend if I thought that
humans were still evolving… I had thought about this topic before and so I
responded by saying that I believe that technology is evolving but humans are
Survival of the fittest no longer exists because the weak
CAN survive due to advances in medicine. Illnesses CAN be cured, disabilities CAN
be cured, lifespans CAN be extended.
This means that humanity is physically DEVOLVING. It is
losing this natural killer instinct – the ability to survive.
Modern medicine means that the most important part of any
body – the brain – is often able to survive, and people can reproduce even in a
So, humanity is left with rapidly increasing brainpower and less human skills. In the ultra-capitalist countries people are trained to be robots, slaves to the system, cogs in the wheel.
In the more relaxed liberal countries people develop with the desire to make a change but they lack the drive and necessity that capitalism chokes you with, but there is yet to be a balance between the two.
More and more of our natural humanistic traits are ebbed
away as we become logicians and move one step closer to the new generation.
AND THIS IS WHERE APRIL COMES IN
April is when the world starts to implement the new 5g internet
that has been long awaited.
Now I know this may not seem like a big deal because
everybody is happy with the internet right?
The new 5g internet is the dawning of the new age. Autonomous cars will take over, people will be able to not just video call but hologram call. Huge amounts of data will be able to be transferred worldwide almost instantly.
This paves the way for the new internet of things. Every new
appliance will be connected to the internet and it will grow and grow at a terrifyingly
quick rate. People will have to accept that technology is better than them and that
they must humbly step aside as robots take their place.
We will all be connected to the cloud or the “internet” and
we will all be nodes of this network. We will be able to operate hyper-efficiently
because all exchange of information will be seamless.
It is very strange because I wrote some predictions in my journal about 9 months ago about this topic and the evolution of humans. I wrote that soon we would all be connected to a cloud or Oracle and we would become the internet of things.
I also predicted that there would be a separatist movement
of anarchists who wanted to separate themselves from this total submission of
our privacy and go “off the grid”.
If all this goes as planned then it does however mean that humans can go back to being humans, with human interactions, less stress, more efficiency and more importantly more TIME.
The Positive Side of Coronavirus
So this brings it back to the Coronavirus… the Coronavirus, whether man made or not (depending on who you believe), serves a purpose and does actually have some positive elements.
For starters a lot of people have time off work or school – or the ability to work from home. This gives people the chance to spend more time with family, time to earn some extra cash, time to start that tai-chi course they saw on Youtube and time to gather their thoughts before the boom that is going to happen once the virus is under control.
People are having to learn to socialise and re-connect with friends via new applications like House Party. There are brain training games and challenges flying around social media, causing people to start learning to pass the time with healthy and productive games.
Take all the positives out of a very negative, stressful and worrying situation that you possibly can, and good things will come. Its going to be a weird few months as we battle the Coronavirus but 2020 is the year where science and spirituality aka the cultures / religions combine.
I think that everyone could sense that something big was coming – WELL THIS IS IT